Christian conference, a few hints

The lack of strength is a consequence of not living with God. If we complain about not having enough power or strength to do Gods will, then it is because we do not follow his will. on the other hand, even the evil is sometimes powerful and sometimes acceptance of lack of strength is also Gods will. maybe it is not a lack of strength but acceptance that I should focus on something else, something for what I shall have the strength. the problem with the will is that all people want to follow God, it is our nature, but we always clash with His will. we complain about not knowing his will but in most cases we have he will but focus rather on what we want. Accepting my weekness is letting God into my life. The exhaustion or depletion of strength is very often a consequence of pride-God helps us so that we do not sin more with pride than we do.

Devil hates us because we resemble God. In the first place we must accept God, than we start fighting evil. we should not focus on looking for evil in order to destroy it. we should try to find what good we can do. preocupation with evil does not help because we see evil only when we let it come into our life.

Children need four things in their growin up: Safety, Love, Value, Acceptance. Anything else is redundant, anything less is compensated with alternatives-drugs, promiscuity.

Faith is intrinsic reliance on God

Salvation is our entelechy and its free. all we should do is that this greates thing that we can get in this world is free- accept that someone loves us so much that He gives this to us for free-accept that someone may love us so much. this acceptance is the most difficult thing because it requires unconditional fall into Gods arms. We must accept the truth that we are the most valuable person to Him. We must also accept that the dignity of man is for everyone else the same as for us-in Gods eyes, Gods truth.

Stand strong on the ground, but have your heart in heaven

a big anger can lead to a big self reconciliation. Sometimes it is better to let our inner evil out rather than trying to hide it and then know myself under new conditions, in new situation. on the other hand, we should not use the weapons of the enemy-eg anger in order to clean ourselves from evil, it is inevitablet that we shall fall into devils trap if we do so regularly. the burst of anger must be in order to clean myself, not egoistically hurt myself or others.

Fear is what hinders us from anything and everything good.

Confession is quite a new thing. People in the time of Christ and after His crucification did not have many occasions to confess, yet if they admited their guild, their sins were lost. same today, confession is the last step that we take in order to clean ourselves officially, but the first and foremost step is in our hearts. We must admit our failure, forgive others but ourselves as well, which is very often more difficult. maybe we should not be so much preocupied with who is better and who is worse but who really cares about well being and good.
Jesus promised to be with us till the end. He also said that we should build communities and spread evangeline. These are things that we with certainty know we should do. Evangeline is partly inhibition of our freedom, but it is giving our freedom in order to be near to God. We cannot force people to get rid of freedom, it is even more important than proximity of God because without freedom noone can choose to come to HIm. on the other hand, we should not be afraid to talk about God in front of other people and also in confrontation, but never forcefully. Everyone has the right to be with God and so that it is our duty to spread evangeline. We should not think that because we are weak we do not have to spread it , but it is false.God shall give us the strength. Faith as well as Love proliferates when it is talked about and given away. The more one gives, the more one has. The more good we are, the more strength to be good we get from our Father in heaven. We should not think that we can save the world or people around us, after all, it is all about saving our soul. nevertheless, we should be ready to help other to save their souls.

The grace of God is given to us for free. It is the greatest good that we can imagine.

The gates of Gods gracefulness on some sacred places are a bit paradoxical because in order to get mercy we should be clean. Should not it be vica versa?

There is no need to call God names, because ˋHe´does not have sex, male or female, we cannot grasp him by our desire to name things.

Is what I want to say important? what should I say so that it is not redundant? The need to say it is the justification of saying it. Stop thinking about whether it is good or not. if I consider it truth, then stop thinking about possible side effects of such utterance.

Idolatry is not only things, real material entities, like food or body but also thoughts. Envy, pride, anything that occupies my mind unnecessarily. Gods justice is incomprehensible for us, it is something we imagine. His righteousness is absolute, for us unimaginable.

Faith without love is uselesss. Faith is a gift, whereas Love is our choice. If one apostazises, it is not a loss of faith, it is a willing and conscious choice to stop loving. If one holds some church prescripts, for example sex prior to marriage as right and for some reason gives up his religion, then holding to it even without religion is a proof of ones faith.
Is there a need for fear of God, religion? we should not fear God, only ourselves. The more restiction, the more recidivity, there is not point in forbidding something, there is only point in explaining everything.

We should acknowledge that we shall fall once or again, but if we have the support in God, we shall be sure he wont let us fall down.

A spiritual guide does not go in front of me, behind me but ,d does not follow or lead but goes right next to me. he envisions consequnces of my deeds, tells me so but leaves the decision on me
Do not be afraid of new things and challenges, God shall not let you fall down.

There should be no difference between what I should do and I want to do. All unhappiness arises from this incongruence.

If we listen to God, he shall show us they way.

Forgiving myself is more difficult than forgiving others. It is basically self un-love, if I do not love myself then I do not let God love me.

One should not be afraid of saying God what the one wants, but after all, God should be the one that says what yes and what not. If what I want does not happen, then it is either bad for me, or I shall get it later, or God has something better for me.

Every thought that comes out of my heart is a good prayer.

When I want to change what I dislike in other, I first must change myself.

Why should I wake Jesus up when he sleeps on the boat in the storm, just b eing with him and trusting Him is essential.

When someone is unsympathetic to me, then I do not sin, this is natural. Only if I let it go into something negative, into hurting that person, then I sin.

The orange tree asked the almond tree to show him Gods presence and the almond tree blossomed.


Saint Joseph

When I learned about the fact that I must choose a patron saint when coming to confirmation, I had no doubts about choosing st. Joseph, foster parent of Jesus Christ. St. Joseph is in my view right after Christ the prototype of humbleness for all Christians. I consider him to be one of the most important persons in the New Testament, although he is almost not mentioned in the whole Bible. I do so not only because he reared Christ, but more because he is a real and truthful example of total dedication to God and faith in God´s calling. The possiblity and chance of becoming “father” of our Saviour is very low and yet Joseph did not doubt it and did not linger a moment in his own thoughts and opinions about the impossibility of such a thing. There is not a direct speech by Joseph in the Bible. Why is that? I would say that it attests his devout character. Even before the Angel told him the message, he was a brave and a just man. He learned that Mary is pregnant and although he must have been hurt both on his pride and ego and also spiritually, he was not vindicative but wanted to let her go in silence. He must be very humiliated because she promised to keep her virginity and apparently did not keep and yet he acted as a just and wise man. Only after that he learned that he should stay with her, only after he already made a just choice. On one hand we should listen to our hearts and conscience but on the other hand we should listen to what God may have for us, as Joseph did. He followed his conscience but the instance God talked to him he immediately changed his mind and followed God´s words. Nevertheless, we Christians should not just wait for what God may or may not say us, we should as Joseph did follow our conscience and then we can be sure, that we do a good thing. If we just waited, we might never have done anything. On the other hand, if we only act, then we do not know the right direction. Joseph is also a great example of how a father should behave. Today many men think that a father should not make compromise, should punish, be tough, follow patriarchy etc. Saint Joseph did just the opposite. A real father should not try to impose its role because it is given and he knows it and does not have a reason to try to elevate his ego by climbing above others in order to make the lesser that is he. To foster a child that is not mine is one of the biggest men´s fears, this is given biologically. Men want to spread their sperm and have children but only biological children cound. To foster a child that is someone´s elses is the biggest humiliation for any man. Joseph accepted this, overcame his pride and became a father for Christ. It is very important to follow our Father in heaven and we may look at st. Joseph to see how a fact should act in a concrete way. We should follow our conscience and not act according to what is pleasant but rather think whether things that are pleasant are really beneficial to use in a good way.


What is knowledge good for?

 I recall three movies from social sphere I saw: Intouchables, Me before you, Inside I am dancing. In these three movies there were asistants that were intentionally chosen not from the social sphere, not those with education but such that had a human and sensitive approach. Of course, it is natural that when someone enters a social sphere and educates in such a sphere, then one should be better off with education than without it, but the movies showed the opposite side of education. Education dulls minds. Easily, the inner feeling one has is the most important thing one should follow, ones conscience. Then one should start to educate, but not eduate in order to follow the education and prescripts, teachers etc blindly. Everything one gains during ones life, any information should be inspirational but not to be followed. We should think about everything that comes to us from the outside but should not follow it blindly. Education is important but only to the degree of inspiring us. Once the education start to build a menagerie of our lives, when it starts telling us to follow this and that then we are in a menagerie and do not follow our inner feeling what we feel is good for us as was shown in those movies. The combination of inner feeling and education is the most benefitial for anybody but as I said before, one has to first follow ones inner voice.


Second adolescence

I noticed that people sometimes, maybe always to a certain degree have two adolescneces. The first one comes around twelve and the other ten years later. Once the first adolescence finishes,the person becomes “adult” in a way, this is usually at eighteen. One studies a university or starts working. After the college or after some years at work one gets a feeling of not getting enough of the youth and here comes the second puberty or adolescence or some kind of phase of it. people have the need to enjoy as much as possible, have a new partner, because, usually girls, after finisheing the puberty find a partner and have him, or some other for some years. every college girl has a boyfriend, that is inevitable, it is a sign of being adult. I heard a saying that a woman at thirty is a launched rocket. I dare say that the same can be applied to boys as well.


Inner voice

Is necessary to believe in sacraments or is an open heart enough? Is it really necessary to be of Catholic faith? Not every Catholic is good, but I think that everyone who is good is inevitably a Catholic – following Christs teaching. If you fulfill all religious prescripts but do not have faith, you are nothing. if you have faith, love, God-like consciense-daimonion, voice of the heart and fulfill no prescript, then you are with God. Until one does not know that something is good and something is bad (sometimes sin is doing something, but sometimes not doing, or doing nothing) then one is not quilty of such a thing. Once one knows teaching of Jesus Christ and does not accept it, then he sins because logically, it is not possible to go against teaching of Jesus – it is the highest principle even for nonbelievers. These prescripts are not outer but inner- they come from our selves, from our essence, they are not given by anybody, not even by Jesus, he came to be sacrificed for us, but he did not tell us anything new-all he said is something we would know if we had opened hearts. Through words and sincerity we arrive at the consensus that doing good is the highest human principle. Its all about choice, I cannot persuade you that something is wrong, I am not God, I do not know it for sure, maybe you can kill with a good intention, I do not know. I cannot say about concrete people or concrete situations that are either good or bad, but I can say for sure abstractly that something is wrong, evil and something right,good. What I say you either take as right and maybe not and maybe you are right in not believeing what I say-that killing someone or sex for pleasure is sin. But if one looks into one´s heart then one sees what is right and what is wrong. Sex for pleasure is very evilish thing to do, although people my disagree with it. I cannot say about concrete people or situation that something is wrong-only the protagonist can say so. It all goes back to an individual conscience. Some things on the other hand are definitely wrong. For example to kill somebody – because by killing somebody I hurt people. What is worse is that I hurt myself and damn myself. The killed one does not sin, but sin is worse than death. To die is not as bad as to die badly – in sin. What if someone sins and does not know it? Euthanasia for example may be considered a murder but may not. Hurting myself, although not doing anything evil to others is the worst thing one can do. Once I know that I hurt myself I must refrain from doing it. Other things may be more ambigous. For example masturbation – can there be a good masturbation? I do not think so, because masturbation is predominantly for my ego, my pleasure. Physical pleasure belongs only to marriage and love making with and for God´s glory. To know that something is wrong, I do not need any experience. For example lynching of people (blacks in the US history of the slave system) is wrong obviously, but what about people that do not know it? Is it possible to not know it? Hurting other always carries with it the knowledge, otherwise one would not hurt other if it did not somehow make it an egoistical pleasurable feeling. Thus one does not need any exprience to know that it is wrong. Such a damage can be very often seen in marriage that use contraception. It hurts me much, that people do not want at least to think about such things and its consequences. Maybe I am wrong,maybe contraception helps in a relationship, I do not want to be dogmatic, on the other hand – I want to be opened to everything, but have not seen up to now that contraception or anything like that could lead to a happy relationship. Golden rule says : do unto other what you want them to do to you. Does a woman want to be used anytime man want her, or should she rather follow her natural biorytmus? This is the question everyone should be willing to answer with a clear conscience.